I am still alive.

It is 7:30pm here in Arizona.

It was a much longer day than I expected.  I went in for surgery around 11:30am but didn't wake up from anistia until 2:00pm.  The prep is what took the most time.  Surgery was about 40 minutes.  We didn't leave until 4pm because it took a while to feel okay to leave.  I was not in as much pain as I thought I'd be in.  My head was at a 6 (1=low, 10=high), my lip was swollen, the roof of my mouth had been scraped, my throat was soar, my nose only hurt slightly.

When we got back to our hotel at 5pm I scarfed down two cups of chicken noodle soup.
My mouth is continually dry which is a frustrating thing.
Blood drips out my nose every now and then.  I have a small sling that is wrapped around my head and under my nose with gauze pressed against it to catch any blood.

I just got through a little panic attack.
It was the craziest thing.  I didn't realize what it was until I was 1/2 way through it.
My heart rate sped up.  I began feeling hot.  My head thumped.  Blood was dripping out my nose making me feel claustrophobic and anxious that I was loosing too much blood. 
Andrew and I were watching a show that began to get a little bloody and I had to look away.  Then I couldn't take it at all.
Soon my panic attack escalated.  Breathing was hard because my throat hurt and my mouth was so dry.  I didn't want to cry because I didn't want my nose to clog up.  It started thumping anyway.  It's hard for me to talk with this big chunk of gauze on my upper lip.  Poor Andrew could only look at me and hold my hand. 
I tried to load up Pandora.com so I could listen to some worship music.  But it wouldn't load.  :(
I prayed for peace.  Thanking God for being with me, caring for me, providing for our needs.
Psalm 34: " They who seek the LORD will not be in want of any good thing."

So here I am, sucking on ice chips to keep my mouth wet.   Taking deep breaths and reminding myself of what is TRUE:
Phil 4
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice!...The Lord is near.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.... and the God of peace will be with you.