new indian name: Sitting Girl

Sitting on my rear since Thursday has taken it's toll on my body.  I stand up just to change positions and wiggle my legs.  But when I stand my head throbs so I'm back on the couch after a couple seconds.
Sunday Morning:

This is just the beginning of the swelling.  couldn't even attempt to open the eye, it continued to get worse until Monday and lots of icing (no, not cupcakes- that would've been yummy, but real ice in an ice pack).

If I were feeling good I would've loved to have seen what it looked like going through the airport.
My face was swollen shut, with my little elf hat, I was so drugged up that all I could do was sleep, in a wheelchair, on the floor, just sleep.  Andrew worked the brain surgery angle to get us an earlier flight and seats together.  One look at me and no one wanted to sit next to me! 

I thought coming home would be easier.
If the pain would just lesson I could handle this.
One day at a time.
I'm so hungry, but have no appetite.  The meds annoy my empty stomach...thankful for ensure and chicken soup broth...my life lines.
The kids are still with extended family, who are gifts from heaven.  They have made this possible.  I got to see the kids for a couple min the other day.  It was good exposure for them for a gradual move back home.
It's really hard to imagine your mom looking like Quasimodo from Hunchback of Notre dame.
Kind of a shock.










Andrew is an amazing husband.  Taking good care of me and patient when I ask him the same question over and over, or say things that are off the wall.

Tuesday:

Please pray that the pain can get back down.  I just can't handle this throbbing.

My face doesn't work on the right side unless I manually make it.  Like closing my eye or opening my mouth.  That will be a slow progression of healing. But I'll be okay with that..it's just I can't handle the pounding and stiff neck from pain -that is torturous.
Okay, enough wining and complaning.  :)

Thank you, thank you dear friends for praying... for your love and support through all of this.

Wow, huge scar

SCARY, huh?!

A much bigger incision than I had anticipated!

It is Friday at 5:30pm, a day 1/2 after surgery and this is the first time my head is not throbbing.  If 1 is good and 10 is throwing up, the usual pain has been between 7 & 8.
Tight now it is at a 4.  Because they had to cut through a jaw muscle my right jaw is severely sore and will continue to be for a few weeks.  the medicine they gave me to help with swelling caused me to puke over and over last night.
the doctors and nurses here are AMAZING.  So nice, respectful, and concerned for my best.
Tonight is my first meal.  I don't know how much I'll be able to eat with so much pain in my jaw but with little bites my tummy will finally get something filling.
I'll probably get discharged tomorrow and will fly home late sunday night.

Thankk you, thank you for praying and giving words of encouragement.  they have been priceless.
I know it's going to still be a long recovery but at least I'm on that path.
Keep the hairstyle ideas coming.  I have two hats I bought while here that I'll be wearing, but I'm not sure how comfortable they'll be on the staples.
Now if I can just stay awake long enough to eat my dinner.
Much love,
Jenn